When I was selected to be a SCC blogger I made a silent pact with myself that I would drag my readers from heaven to hell, depending on my mood and state of mind. However, most of my blogging was aimed at entertaining. A couple of times I attempted to share some of the darkness that exists in me, but could not click the button.
We all have a multitude of hats that we wear
depending on the occasion or situation. That’s not schizophrenia; it’s called adjusting to your environment. Some of us have a persona we like to project, rather than letting people know the real us. I plead guilty to this. Often times exposing the layer just beneath the surface leaves us vulnerable and that leaves me uncomfortable.
Having tried the open, honest approach many times, this is how it was used against me: the person/s used my insecurities, truths, & fears for their own gain. I could see and hear with my own eyes and ears what was really happening in the situation, but was told that I didn’t have a grasp on reality and was told how I should perceive the information. There comes a time in life when one must evaluate friendships and relationships and divide them into two categories, healthy or unhealthy…more simply put good or bad.
We’ll I’ve done some sorting and there are some who didn’t make the cut. I no longer acknowledge these people in anyway. If I see them in public, I am civil if they greet me, but I usually excuse myself saying, “Oh, there’s such and such, someone I really want to talk to,” and walk away…
